During these months of spring and summer which were my favorite seasons in the past, today I only experience them through the cracks of the blinds and the odd whiff of sweet perfume that comes through my open windows. I would love to be outside and yet have very mixed feelings when I take a trip to the grocery store. Every stimulation I encounter is a sensory reminder of what I miss so much and longingly wish to recreate. How to describe that to anyone, I don't know. I have always been an outdoor person but in my own gardens and when I had a purpose. When I do venture out these days, I feel totally lost/purposeless and I rush home to hide again behind my blinds. I just can't stand the pain.
~ Tutte ~
